"Emotions scare me. Emotions signal a loss of control, and I have tried so hard and for so long to be in control of as many things as possible in my life. Yet I sense that I am missing out on something, that my blank existence is no way to live. By engaging in eating-disordered activities, I am numbing my feelings. Instead of feeling my anger, I throw it up; instead of feeling my sadness, I attempt to starve it away."
-Nicole Jones, Purge: Rehab Diaries (via alightinmyheart)Most recovering girls in here are just so underweight… And then there’s me, the healthy-weight whale.
relevant right now
oh well..
Amen.
why is it so easy to tell someone else there beautiful and to fight for recovery, yet so hard to tell yourself?
I’m tough, ambitious, and I know exactly what I want. If that makes me a bitch, okay.
National Eating Disorders Awareness Week | Psychology Today
“Remember, the eating disorder didn’t just appear. Your loved one didn’t start starving, bingeing, purging or eating compulsively on a whim. And he or she isn’t just doing it to be thin. These behaviors are a response to deeper emotional pain, depression, anxiety and other interpersonal experiences. Once you are able to empathize with these feelings, you have taken a major step toward connecting with your loved one and helping him or her to trust in something other than the eating disorder. If you can suspend prejudices and become a person that will not judge, shame, control or criticize, then you offer the opportunity to trust. This can ultimately set the stage for recovery so that food or body imageobsession will no longer be the only reliable “object” in his or her life. “
Even though National Eating Disorder Awareness Week is over, I really liked this article, and I thought some of you might like it, as well. Perhaps you can show it to family members.
The author of this article, Judy Scheel, also wrote the book When Food is Family. It could be a book that your family could read and, through reading it, learn how to better support you through your struggles.
